Abuse Testimony

by Robert Burgess

(This first appeared as a response to a thread on 'Abuse' at

Great Eagle Ministries International Forums)

Dear Friends and Saints of the Kingdom,

As most of you have noticed lately we've had much discussion along the lines of the subject of abuse. I have no desire to belabor the subject; to the contrary, I would like to bring closure to it if possible. With this, I believe that it might be helpful if I give a short testimony that will hopefully clear up any lingering questions or doubts that might exist in people's minds concerning anyone's apparent lack of sensitivity toward the subject of abuse and/or toward those who have often been victimized in it.

As a young lad my younger brother, older sister, and I were the victims of the most terrible abuse; this abuse came directly from members of our own family, our grandparents (who were Freemasons, of the 33rd degree). By the tender age of three, no less than three attempts had been made upon my life (for the purpose of ritual sacrifice), and because of so many failed attempts on my life, finally my little brother was chosen to die instead (upon orders from my grandmother).

After studying the history of the Burgess family in the USA I found that I was the 14th generation from Thomas Burgess who landed at Plymouth Rock in 1630, having been expelled from England for preaching something that the King (James) didn't agree with. In studying the Burgess genealogy further, I found that the family has been clearly divided between membership in the Masonic orders, and the Church. The first bishop of Maine for instance, was Alexander Burgess, a well-known churchman of his day. Other well-known Burgesses throughout the history of the colonies have been 32nd and 33rd degree Masons.

Apparently the enemy has had an assignment on my life from the beginning, to kill me physically, or to dispose of me somehow, either through character assassination, or by any means at his disposal. As a Christian and as a mature man of God I now realize that the enemy has done all in his attempts to make me prejudice against women, to place them all in a position of guiltiness somehow, of the crimes that were committed against me and against my family.

But as a man of God and one who knows the truth I reject all such thoughts as from the pit of hell! I refuse to allow the enemy to taint my mind with such ideas as this; so when I am confronted by such individuals as (**) I am very much offended and turned off by their total lack of forgiveness for anyone, and general lack of true spirituality, as these are things very unbecoming of a Christian. So little is understood about overcoming by individuals like this, and I am saddened by it; evidently no one has crossed her path with a real ministry of deliverance, or with the courage to face off with those spirits that have inspired the conditions that now exist within her.

I could go on and tell of numerous instances through the course of my lifetime that were designed to cause me to be a "Woman hater' if possible; I could relate to the time I was run over and left for dead by my ex-wife while driving a three-quarter ton Chevy van. Or I could recall the time that she wrecked the front-end of a Chrysler New Yorker I had just bought her for a wedding present, while trying to pin me against a solid rock wall in Moab, Utah (on our honeymoon). But really these could be more like regurgitations than they would be merely recollections, so I won't bore you with any more such things as this. But perhaps these few incidents might be enough to convince someone (even the most skeptical of our readers) of the fact that I fully understand what the meaning of the word abuse is all about.

Since having been through so many instances of abuse myself (in my short 62 years of living) I can assure you that my heart goes out to those who also have suffered greatly from abuse; I can identify with them. But I refuse to get down in the mire and wallow with them in it.. For I and they, have been called to something far better than a continual wallowing in the mire of abuse or any other thing that this world and the devil has ordained to defeat, distract, delay, or to hinder us in any way from going on unto perfection and attaining into the mark of the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus!!

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus (Phil 3:13-14)."

So it just very well could be that those who come to me expecting only my listening ear, a soft shoulder (to cry on), and much sympathy (but not a way out of their dilemma) will probably have to just keep moving on.. Since I have long ago settled it within myself that I'm not going back to wallowing in the past abuses that have been heaped upon them, or me and my family, or upon the whole human race through Adam and/or Eve, for that matter. But I, by the grace of God, am going on to perfection, whereunto the whole human family (and especially the family of God) has been called.

"And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses (Mat 6:12-15)."

Love and Blessings to all,

Robert Burgess

June 22, 2005

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